cars

-cars are a waste of money.why can't we have super cool ,sexy sleek new fuel efficient safe energy vehicles?becouse they would be too cheap.if something ran on air,we can't have it,becouse we can't be charged for air (i saw this movie when people lived on marse and were charged for air ...that was just cruel)/if it a on water people would die: some people can't gey water already.what if it ran on love?wait,not enough love to go around.now if it ran on death...everytime we turn around,people and plants,and creatures are dying.

yup,a death machine.it'll work;its just that the sinners don't want to go to hell for that.(we are all sinners,i'm taling about the ones who over do it)

why can't people accept that nature is alive...and that death is not evil,its the last stage of life (unless one believes in reincarnation)

money for music

-i never buy music from stores.i listen to it online or by other means.i do this becouse i don't like wasting money;why buy an album that i only half like?makes no since.that and i have diverse tastes.some songs i like are from soundtracks.artists are just hard to find (AFI my fave band being one) in philly.i don't like going thrugh the inconvinience.some people like to hold the disk; no,the disk can get jacked up and i have to buy another.more wasted money.prefer to pay for online downloads.i can be picky this way.

also,some songs i like,i woulfd have to import from another country/contenant.i don't have the money,time,or space to put the stuff.thatg,mplus i value all songs as their stand alone value.
a great song can be from a shotty album (ex:the song Medicate by AFI great song, the new album Crash love was ass)

i do know people who insist on buying albums.why i don't know.then,sometimes i don't like the song order.what if I want to listen to day and night (kid cudi) then amazing (kanye west featuring jeezy),and after that slow dance (keri hilson) endlessly,she said (AFI) followed by vicarious (tool).that is not on a cd in a store.i have tpo make that! some songs sound better in a certain order,by the same or different artist.most people don't realise this,but its true.there are many pluses to not buying albums,but songs instead.

the thieves

-i give to charities when i can,but i always have the suspicon that someone iis in the charity money.i think that there is always someone taking from the less fortunate.all those billions of dollars floating around are the worse temptation.there have been a lot of people (white people) who have gotten caught stealing charity money.that is the lowest of the low...not realy, but close.i could never have the concience to do that.the worst part is the anger and sadness the needy and everyone else feel finding out.and the guilty feel shame getting caught, you know,if a person does something enough ,it becomes second nature and then it doesn't feel so bad.like a serial killer killing.they don't get caught,and they enjoy it so they do it.

also,cancer research.all that money,and where's the cure?same with HIV/AIDS.I have this theory that some people don't want a cure to be found.so many die from these things.well,untless you're born with HIV orAIDS or work around the sick and injured,I don't blame you.if you got it from sex
(not rape,volunteery sex) its yoour own fault anyway.i feel no sympathy for these people,we got to many clinics in america for this .

those who suffer

-the whole incident was with haiti was somewhat shocking,at least in the point that i didn't know haiti had earthquakes.recently china had an earthquake.then there are wild fires all over california.realy,i wonder why so many natural disasters?is this a product of the creator's wrath?the doing of man?a test?or is it just bad luck?still,one thing is certain,this proves that tragedy unites people.why is it that people c an inflict pain on others,billions spent on wars and conquest, for one's personal gain?

but if nature strikes,it snot okay.its okay to rape women in the streets,turn foreign faces into that of demons and shoot everyone in your way down?its looked at as heroic.warhero is the ultimate paradox of human words.can one who fights a war be a her?why can' the ones who committed the crime be the ones executed?people like to shoot first and ask questions later.this is not a good method to use.

-I seem to feel realy detached from people or realy attached.there is no middle ground for me.

i feel stuck,and its driving me crazy.then there is also the fact that i am way too selfless.i always do things i never want to do,becouse thats what make s everyone else feel beter.there are a fw things that are reserved for me,my art,my writing,my personality are the only things l;eft untouched.even my appearance,the way i walk,the way i talk,the way i eat ,the music i like even what i like to read and watch causes some crazy commotion .why can't people leave me the hell alone?it seems like my whole existance is a threat .....